It was a rainy evening as we plowed through the highway puddles in his GMC truck. Troy and I had had a busy Saturday, and planned a date day for Sunday: brunch at a favourite bakery (reminiscent of Paris to me!) and massages.
As we drove home from dinner at his parents, I started to share about some of the heart work I feel the Lord has been doing. I’ve shared before, but over the past 2-3 years, the Lord has been bringing things from my head to my heart. The truth of the gospel and its complete and sustaining work has begun to take deeper root. And I just shared with Troy that that’s the one thing that has stood out to me the most out of all the teaching and reading and heart-searching we’ve been doing – is that God’s redemptive work is ongoing.
I looked at Troy and said, “I knew God had saved me, but I think I felt like some of the sanctification was up to me.” Did I realize that? No. But some of my religious ways would testify that something was missing. Some things just hadn’t gone from my head to my heart. Only God can save AND change a heart. And when you finally start to realize this, you see both how far you have yet to go, but the weight of the journey is no longer on your shoulders. It’s actually so freeing!
Paul writes in 1 Corinthians 15:1-2 “Now I would remind you, brothers, of the gospel I preached to you, which you received, in which you stand, and by which you are being saved, if you hold fast to the word I preached to you—unless you believed in vain.”
Saved. Stand. Being saved (sanctification!).
And yet even in that, I have days, or weeks, where I feel the Lord is distant. And all I can think to pray is, “Lord, I want to want you like nothing else. I want to desire you and crave You. More. But sometimes, I just don’t. My heart can be consumed with other things.”
Timothy Keller says that when we finally can admit that we want more of God but don’t know where to start and are just not where we want to be, that that is the start of faith, redemptive work. If we walk around thinking we’ve arrived and are living high on faith, then we just don’t get it. (my paraphrase) And I have to admit, I’d agree with him.
As Troy and I talked, we realized one of the biggest hindrances to growth is time. Time. Time with the Lord. Time in the Word. Time in letting Him do His work. We miss out on His redemptive work in us if either a) we don’t spend time knowing Him b) don’t give Him time to do His work in us
So as you start this week, I challenge you to give God more time. Daily. And progressively, as He does His redemptive work in you. Because I can guarantee that if you desire is for Him and you continue to move towards Him, not away, that He is at work, in ways we can hardly imagine.