We’d look at each other with mischief, knowing we could very well get caught. Hoping Mom and Dad were in a room on the other side of the house, my sister and I would tip-toe into the livingroom and sit cross-legged beside the glowing Christmas tree. We’d wait, purvey the gifts, and then choose which to shake. Then slowly, but surely, our fingers would find a way to peel back a corner juuuuust enough to read a label. Many times, as kids, we found out what our gift was long before December 25, whether it was discovered under the Christmas tree or found in a closet! Curiosity somehow caught us, and I’ll admit, it was never as much fun as a real surprise!
A year ago I took a risk and uprooted my life to try something different and follow my heart to live in England. To this day, I don’t regret that decision, but I’ll admit it’s been a constant test to put my trust in God, not my circumstances, or even myself.
You see, I like to have things figured out. I like to know what is expected of me, and what my role is. Now I find myself in a job that is a contract position until March 1st of next year. Do I know where I will be after that? No, I don’t. Options and ideas, but no answers yet. I am choosing to put my trust in God’s faithfulness.
The other day I pulled out a piece of paper that’s been tucked in my journal for months. It was a prayer list I made around the new-year. I had a lot of things that needed to get worked out, details and such, for my return to Canada. And on it as well were a few heart prayers. As I look back on this list, and see the check marks, it’s a reminder that God answered every single one of those prayers right down to the amount of rent I wanted to pay. I will always keep that list handy as a reminder of God’s faithfulness. He remains faithful even when I don’t! And that although I may not have everything figured out, He sees the big picture of my life and all I need to be concerned about is living out today in obedience and love for Him.
Tonight I went for a short walk and the freshness of fall is already in the air. I know, I hate to even write that, yet part of me gets excited as well. Fall. Is. Beautiful. As I meandered home through a woodsy trail I came across a doe and her two babies, grazing the alfalfa and clover. She looked up at me and took a few steps. Then she looked up at me again. With no sign of intimidation, she kept on eating. I then came across a little squirrel feeding. And while this may seem so minute, the fact that I had been talking to God about the future this came as a little reminder to me – I’m His creation and He Will Take Care Of Me.
Well, as I wrote this blog the whole bowl of popcorn got eaten and the pumpkin scented candle still burns on my window sill. I read over these few words and ask you this (and I challenge myself with this too!) – do you try to unwrap and figure out the gift God has for you before it’s your time to open it? Or do you trust that He has your best in mind, at all times, in all things, and as we follow His leading day by day – His faithfulness will triumph…? I am choosing the latter, and that will be a daily choice.
Trust JESUS!! He has something amazing in store for you, and trying to figure it out will just ruin the journey and the surprise!! HE IS GOOD.
These verses in the Message Bible are so amazing, I leave you with this tonight…
Matthew 6:25 – 34 – “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink, or about your body, what you will wear. Isn’t there more to life than food and more to the body than clothing? Look at the birds in the sky: They do not sow, or reap, or gather into barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren’t you more valuable than they are? And which of you by worrying can add even one hour to his life? Why do you worry about clothing? Think about how the flowers of the field grow; they do not work or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his glory was clothed like one of these! And if this is how God clothes the wild grass, which is here today and tomorrow is tossed into the fire to heat the oven, won’t he clothe you even more, you people of little faith? So then, don’t worry saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ For the unconverted pursue these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But above all pursue his kingdom and righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. So then, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Today has enough trouble of its own.”